Learning to Live again Chasing my dreams (Experience Unlimited) !!!!!!!!!!!

Off late I feel like I only return to this blog when I realize my own authenticity is dying and in a way, it's true. This place is full of my authenticity and my mind space to share all my thoughts.

Since childhood I have been reading many inspirational stories and quotes stating "Life is a journey. It is meant to be lived fearlessly." Also I have come across many saying, "I want to change. I want to rediscover my passion and reinvent my life".

I had decided that too much inspiration seeking will leave you drained, uninspired, stuck, and believing that you just can't create. In my life I wanted to be myself and I wanted to be open about how I feel. I used to waste too much time wondering if I'm going to say something stupid. I don't want to pretend I am someone, and I am not, because I don't feel comfortable. But I want to learn to live. “Oh, do I want to learn??” And ya that’s were my fear started. Later questions like "Why then do we let fear get the best of us? Why do we stand in our own way when it comes to doing what we want?" keep buzzing my mind.

Finally I found that the fear is because it is so much easier to stand to the sidelines, and let life pass us by, always holding our dreams and ambitions close to our heart. But the funny thing about life is it doesn't offer any guarantee on our dreams. Sometimes it will force us to take the big risk, the one with absolutely no promise of success. The thing we may not realize though, which is something I am still learning each and every day, is that life really does give you what we need to take those risks and chase your dreams.

My family and friends know that I have made some really bold moves along the journey, but my heart longs to make even more. By learning to fully focus on my dreams, I was able to start pushing myself further and further outside of my old comfort zone. And I have felt terrified many days along the way because I am taking risk after risk to chase my dreams. I do Feel the fear . . . and then do it anyway. No matter how many people I speak with, no matter how many books I read, no matter how much I learn or grow or achieve, the fear is always inside. That little voice of doubt is always whispering in my head to play it safe.

From my journey I learnt that nobody’s perfect. You aren't always going to win. Sometimes, you are going to fall so hard, you don’t know how you will ever get up again. But in every instance, there will be a lesson or understanding you take with you for the next time.

I personally follow the words of some unknown scholar – “Believe in yourself, think back on what you have learned before, and push through the line. You might be surprised by how far you can go.” The problem is that when you don’t push yourself to achieve more than the standards of living, you never really know how far you could have gone in this life.

The only thing stopping you from chasing your dreams right now . . . is you.

And I believe it’s never too late to reinvent yourself.

CURIOSITY UNLIMITED - Making Every Minute COUNT !!!

There are times i wish i could directly translate my thoughts into my laptop. There are these tidbits running in my mind, untethered and by the time i finish my work and get to the blog, whoos hooo (just like magicians say)...it's no longer there, buried as it must be under the analysis & calculations and a myriad other things which define my day.

Then there are times i wish i had continued with my anonymous self while blogging. I could then get away with a truly outrageous statement like '.......&___________',

"................myriad DOTS"

Don't go away, i'm thinking, i'm thinking!!!



These are disoriented thoughts finding its way here... Day in and day out that arise in my sub memory about these Q's..

Yesterday - What were you doing 20 years ago?

Today -If you build a time capsule today what would it contain?

Tomorrow - What do you see yourself doing 15 years from now?


just wondering why 20 yrs back and 15 yrs ahead?!!! not that it makes any difference but.... my

Yesterday -20 years ago My oldest memory would be a faint one of me enjoying a holiday declared by my school for a National leaders death without knowing why it was declared for!!

Today -If you build a time capsule today what would it contain?: Is there some way I can pick up all the weeds in the society and zap them back…so that there really will be a future worth waiting for?

Tomorrow - It’s been a years in slow motion…sort of makes up for previous years which was full of change and just zipped by.



This should have been easy for a dreamer like me! I see dreams when I'm awake and when i'm asleep!. Choosing THE dream was like asking me to choose only one "Dish" my favorite "Food List" !! All my dreams become THE dream at the time...

So, at any point of time...

I dream of a safe world where children can keep their innocence longer and not worry about abuse from the seen and unseen...

I dream of a tolerant world where racism and terrorism are just words, empty, dirty words...

I dream of leaving a greener Earth for our children to inherit...

I dream of peace...

I dream of goals to be accomplished...

I dream of the day when a woman, can walk down any street in any corner of the world feeling safe...

I dream of sunsets with that special someone long after the nest is empty and the birds have flown.

I've been reading blogs after a long gap when Onion prices are competing with the cost of Petrol and Beer. Don"t know who is gonna be the winner in reaching Rs.100 mark. $ has reached a new mark of Rs.65.

By and large everyone echoes the same sentiment of wanting to do something, anything ...I see determined people all around having one thing in common..they are all see things with rage...

It is the right time to guide that anger in the right direction. They need to unite and take a big first step, perhaps have a common goal... any ideas what that step could be?

The need of the hour is finding the right leadership to take our country forward...

Its time to make a big deal of showing everyone that WE do matter....

INSPIRATIONS !!!

Long time no see!


Wow, it's been a while since I posted something here. I'm sorry guys, I've just had too much fun, work and been too busy to even think about writing here. I hope you understand.. ;)

I thought to write a little bit every day rather then come back after a few days and catch up. But I write when I feel like it only :)

Off-late I noticed that I get Inspired from other people a lot. Guess I'm getting older hehe, but in a good sense.

To get Inspired from someone or something is not to copy or not have a will of your own.

One of the things is to maybe get to know yourself better, see what kind of abilities You have, see the world and things in an other perspective. Now I would like to see the true meaning of life and make a difference.

I think that's how you end up with your ideas. A lot of it is especially from other people only.

our idea shall be - "To get Inspired!" and "Not to Mimic!"

You see what people do. You like it and want to do the same thing, but then perform it in your own way.

You see what people are wearing. You like it and want to wear the same thing, but design it to your own.

Alas I desire to see the world and what it has offered. Meet and know Other people, their culture, their food. Planning to convert as a part time WANDERER.. coz i have my other dreams and goals too which fuel my thoughts forever in the longrun.



See you all soon !!!

Life without our Beloved GADGETS !!!!

Today many of us are addicted to constantly being available and reachable, mobile or online; especially for someone like me who is away from home.I admit I can’t live without my laptop, phone and the Internet, I really feel naked without them. A deep-seated feeling of a likely boredom without laptop and internet for 2 whole weeks. Now finally 2days back, only after its come back from service I realised how addicted we have been to gadgets, internet and stuff that we somehow are depriving ourselves of the real quality of life out there. I absolutely get frustrated and angry and start wondering what’s going on on the net without me and what I’m missing – an important mail or a fun message. Does that sound familiar? Yes many will definitely admit it, I bet it does!!! How long do you think we could survive without our so beloved laptop or phone?

Can you imagine a life with no laptop, no Internet, no Facebook? I can’t, sadly or not, I really can’t. But the truth is we are not dependent on our devices. We choose to be. I dont think having mobiles, laptop, tv or internet stops us from anything but many of us have slowly started revolving our lives around them and it is we who cant see anything beyond it and hamper ourselves from the real bliss of nature and the “organic living” as they say.Although not everybody thinks the same and different people have different priorities;agreed. But treating them as a means to the end and not the end itself could definitely enable one to make the best of both worlds.

However am planning to follow as psychologists say in their articles that, "Do choose to take a break from time to time! Get your mind refocused by doing something else and get away from technology for a while – go for a walk for example, get some fresh air, enjoy the sun, have coffee with friends, read a book if you want (not an e-book, but a print version); just clear your mind and you’ll be way more relaxed and ready to get back to work with full strength. Breaks do help."

Away from Home

Being away from home for studies or work are hard many times. Whether you are gone for six months, 1 year or two years, being away from your family and friends can more difficult than you imagine. Be it my current city of work "MUMBAI" or my study city of "DEHRADUN", the feeling of homesickness is something most of us get. At some point everyone craves the more familiar like friends, food, pets or family. Sometimes it just feels like it all is so far away.

The holiday’s can make it even more difficult as you remember certain traditions you used to have, family gatherings and home cooked food. It is also hard to miss all of those traditions going on at home that you have grown up with for so many years, especially during the festival days.

Many advised me, "if you’re feeling a little homesick, don’t worry, it happens to everyone. Try to take your mind off of it and hang out with some close friends, get out of your apartment and do something. The feeling doesn’t last forever and soon you will be back to normal!!! "

Finally I found out the best way to deal with homesickness and boredom is to get out and meet some people, not regular people but the needy and hurray i am into educating the needy kids. Now I can say am really occupied on all my weekends and other holidays. Visiting various orphanages keeps me busy during the initial stages and the fact to be shared here is I have got a lot more likeminded friends in this unknown city.

Since the organization is a new born baby in Mumbai, hope we will come across various challenges and hurdles in growing it. Also I have heard many interesting stories from my seniors on their experiences working with kids. In my forthcoming blogs I will share my experiences..

To be continued...

Dark Knight - The Black Beauty

We all know that life isn't sunshine and roses all the time. We live in a hostile world where all of us constantly feel the need to be loved, accepted, respected and admired. Ever since humanity invented sin(God did not create sin-We did), and evolved moral codes of conduct and slapped divine sanctions on itself, civilizations have sought to divide all actions, words, thoughts and feelings into 'good' and 'bad', 'right' and 'wrong', 'positive' and 'negative'. But different human societies have ensured that these terms are conjugational— "I am right, you are mistaken, he is wrong; we are good, you are in error, they are evil." While conflicts are continually maintained, raised to the boil and coo



led off intermittently, the fiction is sustained that Truth is one and only the paths vary.

Negative thinking appears to be more prevalent than positive thinking. It seems that with most people positive thinking requires some effort, whereas negative thinking comes easily and uninvited. The power of negative thinking, denotes that there is no such thing as negative feeling, thought or action. What one perceives as negative emotion or feeling is actually a protective feeling or emotion. The negative label, blocks us from seeing our (guilt, hatred, depression, fear and despair) protective and deeper alerting functions. Our fears, allergies, hates, outbursts, withdrawals and evasions are manifestations of our need to protect ourselves from rejection and humiliation. They are not negative; they are our shields and warning systems.

If you didn't know any better, you might say we're a country that preaches optimism. But foreigners employ a calculated form of negative thinking called defensive pessimism, that can lead to very positive results. Defensive pessimism is a strategy used in specific situations to manage anxiety, fear, and worry. Defensive pessimists, prepare for a situation by setting low expectations for themselves, then follow up with a very detailed assessment of everything that may go wrong. Once they've imagined the full range of bad outcomes, they start figuring out how they'll handle them, and that gives them a sense of control.

Many Psychotherapists encourage us to indulge our full range of emotions because each emotion has something to teach us. Each emotion thus plays a critical role in our progress and mind-body healing process.Accepting rather than rejecting a negative emotion takes the edge off its destructive power. If you live the emotion, you will be relieved of it and it may even help you. Psychotherapist Greenspan suggests we think of emotions as teachers. Sorrow teaches us about interconnectedness. Fear is a survival instinct. And anger indicates that something’s wrong that must be made right.

To this I would add, "envy teaches us that we need to better ourselves; disappointment tells us our expectations are unrealistic or that we need to increase our own efforts; frustration tells us we are bored with present circumstances and it’s time for a change". Being stressed means we need to list our priorities; loneliness tells us we need to be connected; guilt tells us we have been unjust to someone or something and need to make amends.

The value of victory is half a grain; the value of defeat is that of a diamond.That is the power of negative reasoning at its most potent and wise.Positive emotion comes from negative emotion all the time. We are all looking for reconciliation, a catharsis. This is how the darker emotions help motivate people to action and allow them to heal.

Bombay… Bombay…Pa ra ra rap pa

Bombay (Mumbai), The Economic Capital of India, definitely is not love at first sight for many. The first time I visited it in 2006; I found its extremities and contrasts, off-putting. For me, it seemed like it was an Indian city trying to be more western. Great Leaders always talked of transforming Mumbai into Shanghai but the fact is that they had not even spared Mumbai to be in its original form. When anyone walks into the street in this city, they shall only think of one thing, "Wow what a mess!”. But none cares for it. People walking from place to place, taxis stuck in horrible traffic, auto rickshaws avoiding the traffic jam by driving around the cars, and cows and other animals running across the street in the midst of pedestrians making their way across the crowded street.

I have heard many saying that life at Mumbai is too fast. I don’t understand what they really mean by that. The office timings here are the same like in any other cities and the amount of work is too the same. Then why is there a fast tag with Mumbai life alone. The only difference which I can see here is the traffic jam and narrow lanes.It’s been about 10 months in Mumbai now. If I compare my life in Chennai and in Mumbai, there I have to use my vehicle from my home to Railway Station, then Local train, again by walk to my office. It’s not only me, many people takes bus, then local train and either walk or takes auto rickshaw to reach office. It’s very rare to reach a venue by using only one mode of transport. I could see the same happening here too for many; thankfully I got an accommodation near my office in a walkable distance. Does that make this city faster than other city, since people have to travel a lot in fact very far? Only reason I would say for that is the Housing prices, which are on par with those of New York City. The other thing which I have noticed is the speed of Pedestrians. Here the people walk too fast, unlike Chennai or any other cities. I think that is only because to reach the place on time, not because they are very active.

My first few months living in Mumbai weren’t much better. I found plenty to dislike about it — the traffic and pollution, honking, crowds, and heat. The lack of space and privacy really bothered me. Not to mention how the city continually crumbles during the monsoon. Yet, as my first year of living here in Mumbai draws to a close, I have really grown to appreciate what the city has to offer. Strangely enough, I now love how its contrasts are confronting to people. It requires certain strength to live here, appreciate the city for what it is, and fall into its groove. Everything exists side by side in Mumbai. I can shop at a mall, or a simple local market. I can dine in a dhaba or a big Hotel even very late at night. I can go out alone safely at night, take a rickshaw and not get threatened and cheated. Although the city is stretched for resources, we have never had power cuts as I have never seen it.

Behind this is the blooming western culture interfacing with the traditional Mumbai culture on the street. Rapidly a western craze has come over this city. Though not severely effecting most rural areas and suburbs that badly, but the urban centre of the city have been hit very badly. Few days back I could witness a lady in a Western outfit with a cigarette in her mouth said, "Indians have spoiled their own wonderful heritage. We have no culture anymore". I didn’t know how to react on that. Wandering the streets of Mumbai now-a-days you can now rarely see the traditional salwar kameeses on teenage girls. I could see a fad of miniskirts (many times ultra mini-that’s how I call it), jeans, and even shorts/night dresses has taken over the minds of not only the teenagers but also the entire women community. The makeups and designs have altered the lifestyle making it very difficult to find the difference between 16 and 60.Bollywood has played a major role in this transformation.

Discos and pubs have opened all over the city. A few years ago, going to a disco was unheard of for teenagers, but now-a-days the opposite is true. Almost every teenager here has gone to a disco somewhere, sometime. But, surely Mumbai must have plenty in its favour for so many people to keep living there. The most frequently cited factors why people are proud of Mumbai were Bollywood, entrepreneurship, and cosmopolitanism. I’d certainly agree with that. Also, what makes Mumbai a heaven is the spirit of Mumbai which never dies. Am very sure that nothing would derail this city or Spirit of Mumbai from its tracks even if 100 Kasab's enter the city, and obviously am included in it as I am a part of Mumbai and now I am ready to live my life in Mumbai whether it is hell or heaven it doesn’t matter.

P.S. The post is not to offense any Mumbaikar. I love the city and the people here.

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