"Solitude"-- My first creation

There was a loveliest time in my life when
I thought you were for me.
Found an empty place within you
for my heart to stay alive.
It’s a place where I discovered
my inspiration and drive
I never saw any flaws in my choice;
Well I guess I didn't see.

I kept on telling myself that you
Will change your views and ways.
But you proved me wrong
Each and every single day.
So much time on my hands,
Spending the hours of my solitude
Trying hard to understand,
Whether words are just words
which hold no meaning to the ones
who don't feel and don't care.

Alas the pain I feel is joyful though
leaving a burning sensation deep within
Not a mistake, but a regrettable fun or unforgiving sin
Not a hidden secret of a fruitless past
abandoned and left behind like snake's skin
Not lost hopes, or shattered dreams never came to be
Though certain of the reasons and causes
The rose falls apart and dies without rain.