Off late I feel like I only return to this blog when I realize my own authenticity is dying and in a way, it's true. This place is full of my authenticity and my mind space to share all my thoughts.
Since childhood I have been reading many inspirational stories and quotes stating "Life is a journey. It is meant to be lived fearlessly." Also I have come across many saying, "I want to change. I want to rediscover my passion and reinvent my life".
I had decided that too much inspiration seeking will leave you drained, uninspired, stuck, and believing that you just can't create. In my life I wanted to be myself and I wanted to be open about how I feel. I used to waste too much time wondering if I'm going to say something stupid. I don't want to pretend I am someone, and I am not, because I don't feel comfortable. But I want to learn to live. “Oh, do I want to learn??” And ya that’s were my fear started. Later questions like "Why then do we let fear get the best of us? Why do we stand in our own way when it comes to doing what we want?" keep buzzing my mind.
Finally I found that the fear is because it is so much easier to stand to the sidelines, and let life pass us by, always holding our dreams and ambitions close to our heart. But the funny thing about life is it doesn't offer any guarantee on our dreams. Sometimes it will force us to take the big risk, the one with absolutely no promise of success. The thing we may not realize though, which is something I am still learning each and every day, is that life really does give you what we need to take those risks and chase your dreams.
My family and friends know that I have made some really bold moves along the journey, but my heart longs to make even more. By learning to fully focus on my dreams, I was able to start pushing myself further and further outside of my old comfort zone. And I have felt terrified many days along the way because I am taking risk after risk to chase my dreams. I do Feel the fear . . . and then do it anyway. No matter how many people I speak with, no matter how many books I read, no matter how much I learn or grow or achieve, the fear is always inside. That little voice of doubt is always whispering in my head to play it safe.
From my journey I learnt that nobody’s perfect. You aren't always going to win. Sometimes, you are going to fall so hard, you don’t know how you will ever get up again. But in every instance, there will be a lesson or understanding you take with you for the next time.
I personally follow the words of some unknown scholar – “Believe in yourself, think back on what you have learned before, and push through the line. You might be surprised by how far you can go.” The problem is that when you don’t push yourself to achieve more than the standards of living, you never really know how far you could have gone in this life.
The only thing stopping you from chasing your dreams right now . . . is you.
And I believe it’s never too late to reinvent yourself.
